I, DarKnight, have return.

After such a long time, in which I travelled to a far off distance, to find and to have what I have longed for an eternity. Searching for the only thing that would that would make my life's quest complete. A quest, where I, all my life, will journey until I have found what I long. For I have failed in my recent quest to find the only thing that would make my heart and soul whole and complete.

I travelled to a deep abyss of pain and suffering, and all the time I gave my heart and soul into trying my way out. I did escape from what it seem to be an unescapable painful trap, though not through the path I have had hoped to travel. For within the abyss, I found what I was looking for and felt it for only the second time in my whole life. But it was never to be, for I could not take it out of the abyss with me. So, I escape once again, empty and unhappy.

For my whole life, I only hoped for one thing to have and I did for a moment. A moment a long time ago, but to me it seem just yesterday, where I felt my whole life was complete and that never again I was to be unhappy. However, as if destiny was against me, or God has forsaken me, I lost it again. Now I ask myself - will I ever find it again? So, I continued on my quest, to once again find the only thing that would make my life complete.

I say to myself all the time that unhappiness will control my life if I ignore what I feel but pain will emerge if I follow my feelings. So, I now begin to think what is the point in life? What is the point of my quest, if it only brings me pain, but if ignore it, I will be unhappy til the day I die? All the time I answer it that life is nothing more than a chance to anyone to find eternal happiness and that is the basis of my quest. To find eternal happiness, even if I have to face a life long damnation.

Now my return has once again ended in a cloud of pain, pain that has become the normality in my life. For my life has been living a painful existence. I shall rest for a short while before I once again set off in my life long quest.

You're probably wondering what I am looking for. I ask you - what is the only thing in the universe that will bring you eternal happiness and cure you of any pain? Well, the answers might differ from people to people but what I believe is the only thing everyone, especially I, is the only thing that is hard to even feel but so easy to lose - true love.

I hope you enjoyed that very short story.

Well, I have great news, I finally graduated from High School and  have  alot more free time now. The truth about my disappearance for nearly 3 months is because I had to prepare and study for my Finals and tell you the truth, it could not get any tougher than that. It was hell I tell you, I felt like just wrote a novel in my finals for I had to write over 10 essays all in all. For I studied Ancient History, Modern History, and English - all in advance level.

Anyway, I am glad to be back on the net. I bet most of you won't even remember me, well I hope to get in touch with you all once more. It has been a very long and tough 1998 for me, I can't wait for 1999 and 2000.

If anyone of you want to get in touch with me just contact me anytime. If you live in Sydney, Australia or dropping by, I'll be glad to meet you all in real life. For at least now, the only thing I have to worry about is getting a job and getting into Uni. Thank God.

DarKnight